"Show Off!"
Updated: Aug 23, 2022
You would have to know…
You would have to know about the nights I spent sleeping in my car
You would have to know about the time I was gathering pennies to get gas
You would have to know about holding my dead son in my arms
You would have to know about the rape
You would have to know how I almost died after falling asleep while driving
You would have to know about the secret pregnancy
You would have to know about the suicide attempts
You would have to know about the physical and verbal abuse
You would have to know about the deep self hatred and desire to die to know...
Why I’m grateful for every smile
Why I’m grateful for every penny
Why I’m grateful for my bed
Why I’m grateful for my body in all forms
Why I’m grateful for my soft heart and the love it gives
Why I'm grateful for lazy beach days
Why I'm grateful for my small mighty circle of safety
Why I shine so bright now
Why I laugh so loud now
Why I rest so peacefully now
Why I hug so tightly now
Why I cry so joyfully now
Why I do my best to feel good ONLY
No matter what that looks like
It may not make sense to you…
It doesn’t have to
You would have to know…
the tears I cried brought me here
the pain I endured brought me here
the shame I had to shed brought me here
the love I had to nurture brought me here
SO DAMN RIGHT I"MMA SHOW IT TF OFF!!!!
BYEEEEEEEEE
